| me and chelle have been chillin for the past few weeks its pretty cool..im glad me n her are gettin close again i miss her and our old school boy talk ahah...but yea im at home on a friday i jus wanna chill tonight i dont feel good....i feel different...and awkward....like im missing a piece of myself...but yea....i cant ever forget the day i lost my self...it keeps running through my head...i cant believe myself...its okae though things happen for a specific reason..i may not now why now but i will in the future...okae everyone have a good night... |
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| the day i lost my self...
tonight i lost myself...i dont know what i was thinking..i knew it should have been a chill kind of thing..but it turned into something more drastic..i can handle the fact because im grown ....i knew better...but hey...the day i lost my self |
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| for the past few days have been good...nothin really..ive been off...wOoHoOo finally...but now i got work..we went to la last weekend it was dope..um...alot of shit has been goin down with teh hhomgirls they got beef with other people n shit but yea...im jus back up n shit..its kool i got my girls...but yea gotta go to work now so yea.... |
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| R.I.P JR LEANO-GO...you'll be missed...to all his homies..i pay my respects...he's in a better place now guys..i know it was wrong but theres nothin we can all do...SO GUYS JUS KEEP YOUR HEADS UP AND REMEMBER HE'S WATCHIN OVER US NOW...this jus teaches everyone..never take anything for granted...why argue about thing, why hate,why anything...just be happy with you have and the people you have around you...i guess this is a kick in the ass for me...i wanna say to all the people who im not close to anymore or not on speaking terms....IM SORRY....we shouldnt be arguing or hating because no matter if we put up this front or not...we all care about each other...im jus mad it had to come around like this...does it really take someones death to make people realize that this is not how we want to live our lives?....i sit here and think why? no one knows...that wont help anyone..i guess this is just his way...and his time...everyone gonna go somehow and someway and eventually someday...it was just his time...but the wrong way but in what other way?...it hurts really bad to know he's gone..i saw him last saturday ...he was smiling..he even gave me one of those bear hugs that last forever and a day..i jus regret not hugging him longer...now i wont get that anymore and im gonna miss that...i always wanted to get with him..he was tone of the 2 younger guys id always go for...and now i have no kind of chance....I WAS ALWAYS A HEART BEAT TOO SHORT...i stilll cant believe it...he's gone...taken from existence...th eonly thing we can all do is jus stay up..and go on with our lives...this jus being one of the many lessons of god..you'll never be forgotten...i'll always remember all the good times and when i first met him...til forever..i rememeber when we talked on the phone one night till 4 in the morning he helped calm my nerves it was nice...that night i was angry at my mom and he told me not to be...and then at big griffs house when i told him i wanted to get with him..i was a month too late...and now...your in a better place...okae imma end this now...everyone its going to be okae...jus take it a day at a time...iight guyss...
JR GO ONE DAY WE'LL MEET AGAIN...LIKE boneznharmony sang.. "SEE YOU AT THE CROSS ROADS HOMIE".... |
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